The picture to right is a work of art I participated in at Unitarian Universalists of Sterling. (
Click this link for background information.) I say "participated", because it was a collaborative, experiential artwork.
This project took a a lot of effort and I tried diligently to make this work. I synchronized my watch every few weeks with www.time.gov, perturbed many a speaker by putting up the mark on sunny Sundays at precisely the same time of day. Nevertheless I did not control all the variables. My guess is that the mirror moved though I don't know exactly why. I intended to put some hot glue on the hinge when it was installed, but it didn't get done. But though the analemma didn't close the way I intended, it is not because of some earth-moving cause. It would have been nice to for this project to go exactly as planned. What a tight, clean demonstration that would have been. But perhaps it is better that it did not. Maybe there's a deeper lesson here than I imagined.
I admit that I feel a certain disappointment, frustration, even shame in the fact that this project did not work out as well as I'd have liked. I have never failed so publicly before. I am accustomed to revealing my work after I have had a chance to edit and revise it. But this project put the creative process itself on public display.
I think there is a theological lesson in this. As it is human nature to do, anything that is sufficiently complicated or unpredictable tends to be attributed to a will or consciousness. We still do it all the time--with our pets, our cars, other people, even ourselves! When the object is the universe itself, we refer to this persona as God. This is not the only way to conceive of God, but it is a common one.
Before Newton's incredibly simple mechanistic description, the motion of the planets had been viewed as capricious and unpredictable. So this newly discovered rational order radically changed the nature of God's involvement with the universe in the minds of Enlightenment philosophers. God was perceived as a purely rational being that conceived of a perfect universe, created it
ex nihilo, and set it in motion. This God is the ultimate planner and controller. This viewpoint was also heavily influenced by Renee Descartes, who's famous dictum is "I think therefore I am." Newton's discoveries allowed Enlightenment thinkers to be tempted to buy fully into Descartes' point of view. The ideal human being and by projection God was conceived as a rational agent in control of its fate. But we are not what we like to imagine we are, just ask Darwin or Freud. While Darwin's view of human origins had a reassuring mechanistic aspect to it, there was a disturbing element of chance involved. The adaptations that nature selects for arise from random mutations--the vast bulk of which are detrimental--and not from a cognitive process of rational intention. And Freud showed us that the rational persona we project to the world is really a fabrication, and that the bulk of our personalities are rooted in irrational processes we are not even fully conscious of.
Ultimately creativity is mostly an irrational process arising precisely from the making of mistakes, sorting through those mistakes, and finding something of beauty. That beauty is then refined and presented as if it had occurred all by itself. Consider the process of evolution. All species arise in response to conditions that are geologically momentary. The vast majority of all species that have ever existed are extinct, and it is the fate of all. As I described in the previous post, the process of scientific discovery is itself unscientific. Darwin and Freud left us a description of nature that implies a God that takes risks and mostly makes mistakes, and is only dimly aware of what it is even doing. A very different picture than the Enlightenment God.
Mistakes are a part of life, and admitting mistakes as soon as they come to awareness is a good practice. For one thing, it mitigates the consequences of the mistake itself and doesn't compound it with the further mistake of deception or disregard. But also it allows one to live in the truth. I guess I never could have failed this spectacularly unless I had attempted to do something bold. And there is a lot to be said for bold action. Of course it can be reckless and one should always "look before leaping". But one can also remain always looking and never leaping. That is itself a big mistake.
Finally, I feel like I have to fix this. I know the dates for all the marks, and I can calculate where the marks "should" be for those dates after the mirror slipped. I can re-aim the mirror, and fix it in place better this time. I think I will use a different color of metal for these "artificial" marks--maybe brass. Some people--I know they're trying to be nice--have said that they love the analemma the way it is. Well, first it isn't an analemma the way it is. And second, it is a marred work of art. It is a bit offensive for someone to say that they prefer you artwork after it's been marred. It says they didn't really appreciate its original concept very much. But I gueess as a gesture of goodwill, I will leave the "errant" marks up. When/if I get it done, I'll post another picture.